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My path to the gospel

Today I have been mjesusonmountainEdlem in the Church of Jesus Christ of SDH for 20 Years! The 26 Mars 1995 was the day I was baptized! Just thought if I could easily share my story: I was born 1978 by young parents (also has an older sister born 1975). Our parents divorced 1982 and I had to grow up with my dad. I was well there and was with my mother two weekends a month. Both of my parents got married and we had many more siblings. 1985 came to my mother's husband (A) in contact with a man who told me he was mormon (R). A invited this man to hang out, an interest arose from his faith with my mother in particular. Additional members of his congregation visited us, and finally also the missionaries. In December 1985, my mother was baptized, when she never had any doubt that this must be the truth. As for me, it took a few years. In that way, I could come to church almost every other Sunday. I do not really remember what I liked at the time. You only do what you see your parents do and do not think so much about it. When I was in my teens, I began to volunteer on activities in the church, even when I was with my father. I can remember that I felt a warmth and a community that I did not feel elsewhere. It felt great to be there. But I lived another life too, as I had no direct thought of giving up. Me and my friends used to use a raw language, and sometimes they often used alcohol and cigarettes at 13, 14, 15. As I continued to church, and in January 1995, there would be a Bolliad in Borlänge (where I lived and still boron). My friends in the church wanted me to come along and I thought it was okay just because it was at home so I could go home and sleep. So I was anyway on the days there and during testimony meeting last day I experienced any as I had never been through; my heart was beating so fast and my tears just rolled down my cheeks because of the absolutely fantastic feeling that met all of me, I could not stop crying the whole day and my heart cried out that I have to baptize me, this is true. I sought no because I thought I had it good as I was, but after this experience I simply could not go on without making a change. I felt in my heart that this gospel as these people testified, was true. I needed to baptize me! So two and a half months later, where I was baptized. My father would have liked me to wait until I was of age but my mother and I received help from above to persuade him. Both of my parents, my bonusmor, my grandmother and all my siblings was on my baptism. One of my brothers who have never been to church earlier was strongly influenced by the spirit and later asked his mother why he was crying at the baptism! She could not answer that but I said it was the Holy Spirit who testified for him that what I did was right .It was an amazing day of my life. Being able to feel completely clean and happy! I have since received many testimonies that God, our Heavenly Father lives and that Jesus Christ is his restored kingdom here on earth. I have during these years 20 not doubted the gospel once! My testimony has certainly been less burning in me because I might not be a prayer or reading the scriptures as I should, or because they erred. Entrusted all those amazing feelings that spirit can give us this is still a belief, that is why we are here on earth to Believe! Faith is something we choose and I choose to believe in it every day because it's so amazing and it feels so true! As if everything and fall into place. Jesus says in the Bible to his apostles; oxå will you leave me? Then answered Simon Peter; Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life !. It's so I can feel; To whom shall I go ?.
No, it will suffice for this time. Thank you all who read, hope it in some way may have reinforced your testimony !?

It is important to examine their sources ....

Today I read about the problems researchers contend with working with Joseph Smith Papers. Joseph Smith is well documented. He had printers who wrote down everything he said and did. The problem of course is that the printers may have misheard, misunderstood, and that those who read what has been written has not managed to decipher some printer's handwriting. An example in the article that was raised was that a printer had drawn down to Emma Smith had [given] a child (child) and that Joseph Smith went away the following day. Little wonder, perhaps, until that concludes that no child is said to have been born at this time, but it was a cold (chill) that Emma had.

Deseret News. 150312.The good, the bad and the illegible: Deciphering handwriting of the early LDS Church scribes

Prince Ata, the second son of the King of Tonga and fourth in line to the throne has finally been baptized

Prince Ata viewing the October 2014 General Conference with missionaries.
Prince Ata viewing the October 2014 General Conference with missionaries.

There was a lot of controversy when the Prince Ata Tonga showed interest in the Mormon Church. The king learned of his second son decided to be baptized, and when he sent his soldiers first to stop the baptism, but the prince sent the soldiers.

The king was not content with this, but sent the Prime Minister of Tonga to bring an end to the spectacle and negotiate with the prince. The baptism was postponed for a while and the prince continued to go to church.

But now, finally, Prince Ata been baptized in a church in Hawaii in March. We must hope that the king did not make him arvslös and everything else that he threatened. It's not easy when you have errant parents who do not like the religion chosen. This occurs more often than you think.

http://lds.net/blog/hasten/tongan-prince-baptized-mormon-church-fathers-wishes/#.VQGkJeGwHZg

http://www.nzkanivapacific.co.nz/2015/03/prince-ata-baptised-in-mormon-church-despite-kings-repeated-requests-to-postpone-ceremony/#.VQGp4-GwHZj

http://mormonlady.com/2014/11/03/kungen-av-tonga-skickar-premiarministern-for-att-stoppa-sonen-fran-att-dopas/

Shame

shame

When I was growing up, I often felt shame. My mother was mentally ill and there was nothing you at all talking about. I carefully avoided anything that could reveal my mother's illness. It was an upbringing in shame and denial. I also felt a great debt. It felt somehow as if everything was my fault and that it was my responsibility to set things right.

At school, alcoholism could be wisdom. "Stina moved away from home. She did not stand out with her parents. Her father dropped. "I remember feeling fond of jealousy like Stina. It would have been so easy to just say that even parents were kidding. But no. Mental illness itself was never talked about. Yes, of course. I actually had a classmate in high school, Fredrik was his name. He told me that his parents were divorced because his mother was mentally ill. Only now at high school he had been told that he had not only a sister, but two more siblings whom no one had told. Fredrik's father had not been able to take care of all four children, without the two youngest he had left away and never told anything about Fredrik and his big sister. I felt terribly sorry for Fredrik and also felt a cohabitation. It was not only me in the whole universe who had a mentally ill parent.

My mother's mental illness made it among others in the fact that she could not clean up, but instead gathered and accumulated. She was not able to throw anything. When other friends took their buddies so I went alone. I could never bring home someone and I had nobody to talk to. When I was maybe twelve years old then expressed my mother very hard and clear to me that if I divulged a single word about how it looked in our home so I would be utkört. I remember the fear I felt. Where would I go? I had nowhere to take my refuge and I had no one at all to talk to.

My siblings were much older than me and them, I could not talk to. Everything was somehow under the lid. In stealth, I tried to clean up as much as I could. One summer I emptied my nephew and my parents' basement in secret. It was basically just rubbish we sorted out and threw the container. Unfortunately, it did not take long, it was just as much junk in the basement again.

When I moved away from home to 19 years old, it was such an incredible relief that I could finally stay somewhere where I could keep in order. I enjoyed being able to win friends and I made a decision to not feel guilty that I was no longer at home and cleaned my parents. Eventually I realized that I actually could do nothing. I freed myself from a lot of the responsibility that I put on myself to be responsible for my parents' lives.

There is an expression in Sweden that I really deny and that's the expression; "It's both pity and shame." It is so incredibly easy to blend these two concepts together. Taste these words yourself: SYND - SKAM.

When I became a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints as I learned about sin. What is a shame really? According to our theology is a pity that of their own free will choose to disobey God's commandments or not to act righteously despite knowing the truth. James 4: 17 says:

He who thus knoweth to do good and doeth it not, he sins.

Sin is thus only about one thing; not following the will of God / the good that we know what is right or wrong. Sin is not about what other people do, it's not about making mistakes, though it was not intentional and it is definitely not about shame.

In our church, we have a wonderful theological doctrine that shields us from shame. Unlike all other Christian churches we believe is not for the original sin. Original Sin means that someone else has done wrong and we others can carry the sin and shame. How unfair is not it.

When I read the literature I'll take some of the thoughts of the förkättade original sin as completely poison the people's self-perception. You can find it in Baudelaire For Fleurs du mal as well as in Hawthornes The Scarlet Letter. We are born as sinners, we inherit the sins of others ... How false is not this doctrine! The truth is that we are born completely new and pure without sin and we do not inherit the sins of others.

Most recently I read Jean Paul Sartre's play The flies that just about guilt and freedom of action. Sartre was one of the 1900's greatest existentialists and he stressed that we as humans were free. We are, if condemned to freedom. It means that we do not inherit someone's sin, and it also means that we must take personal responsibility for our decisions. Unfortunately, it seems that Sartre considers that the fact that people can take their fate in their own hands also means that people can feel the anxiety and guilt.

Having the gospel in his life and truly discovering what the gospel means has led me to understand what sin is and I can distinguish between sin and guilt. I know I'm innocent of my parents' behavior, and I do not even charge them for their way of living. Mental illness is no sin in itself.

The gospel has really meant a lot in my life and one of the things is that I have because of the gospel has come to realize that I can not take responsibility for other people's decisions and way of life, but is responsible for my own decisions and the way we live and I do not need to feel guilty, but can let God take care of my negative feelings. All I have to do is start afresh and learn to listen to the Holy Spirit's promptings.

Of course, all this is a process. When I was 28 years and met my current husband, I felt a great shame to tell him about my parents, how my mother was and how it looked in my childhood home. It is only in his forties that I have come so far in my development that I no longer feel shame, but can distinguish between my life and my parents' lives and tell you about my upbringing.